We arrived at our next stop, Phipps Conservatory. I didn't expect Sidney to take me to see flowers, but hey, I was down for it! We agreed to check out the shop before we left. I'm sure I could find a cute gnome I would HAVE to have to set in my little tiny "back yard". We walked through the palm court and saw a horse shaped shrub. It was really making me feel pathetic about my yard.
"Which way first?" he said looking left and right, back and forth.
"Rock, papers, scissor? I say left!"
"Deal! Rock, paper, scissor, SHOOT!"
"Paper beats rock!" I yelled, bouncing.
"Best two out of three!" he called as I started heading towards the winning destination.
"Nice try, Crosby!" I walked into the sunken garden and was a little disappointed I picked such a lame room.
"Yeah, lets go left, Sid. It's soooo cool," he mocked me.
I waved him off and looked around, "There's a cool colorful snake!"
"Where!" freaking out, Sidney was looking all over the ground.
"Right there, you dork!" I laughed, pointing to the decoration. "What a scaredy cat!" He rolled his eyes as we made it into the next room. "Lets go into the most boring ones first. I'm sure it gets better!" I said being optimistic. We walked around the Victoria Room and noticed the interesting fountain, where we could control the jets and lights.
"Okay, I'll admit, it's getting cooler!" he laughed. We headed near Broderie Room, where most weddings were held. "This would be annoying to walk through for a wedding. Were does everyone sit! The bride would get lost making it to the alter!" Sid said looking around, trying to find the end of it.
I just chuckled and agreed, "Well, be sure to not pick this out for a venue, dear." Outside was an aquatic garden. For being fall, it was still very pretty. It was getting cooler outside as the day drug on. We made it to the East room with a beautiful waterfall. There was something about those that made me feel so peaceful. "When I have like a million dollars one day, I'll have my own waterfall," I joked, but with a completely serious face.
"I wonder why I haven't thought of getting one myself!" Sid said, really considering it. I just glared at him, knowing it would be nothing to him to get a whole scene of nature in his yard.
We made it through the whole place, enjoying the beautiful things nature could create. My favorite was the Tropical room with the cool, goofy statue, made out of weird flowers or a tree, that looks like a Wild Thing. Sidney and I bought a few things from the gift shop before heading out. We decided it was time to get some food since our stomachs were growling at this point.
We headed into South Side and walked down the street to find the prefect place. "I don't think I want fancy," I wrinkled my nose, passing Nakama.
"Where ever your little tummy pleases," he said with his arm around my shoulder and patting my stomach, making me giggle.
We decided on a small pizza shop, Gennaro's. We were served quickly and we finished off a whole pizza together. I guess that's what happens when you wait all day to eat again, minus a small sandwich we grabbed before we left the zoo. "Well, I'm ready to sleep till next week," I laughed.
"One last surprise," grinning, Sid sipped on his water. "Ready?" I sighed and nodded. "You don't wanna go? You wanna go home?" he asked, looking defeated.
"No, sweetheart!" I said getting up, "I'm just worried you might have to roll me to our next destination."
He had a sigh of relief, "Good, you'll love this," he said kissing me. We drove down to the incline and I knew his plan exactly. I just felt butterflies all over. This was just a perfect ending to our night. We rode to the top of Mount Washington, enjoying the final bit of Sunlight. He held me close as we sat on the cold ground. Everything today was just so wonderful. I felt so peaceful and nothing was holding me back. I really let go of every fear I had and was ready to love Sidney with my whole heart, without second guessing.
We turned to one another, as if we both knew what each other was thinking, and closed the gap between us, our lips pressing together. His tongue gliding across my bottom lip, wanting to tangle with tongue. I knocked off his hat, holding it with one hand, while I grabbed his curls with the other. His hands roaming my lower body, I could feel things heating up. It would be the perfect ending to our night, but I needed to set a line for us starting out again. I pulled away smiling and gave him one last, small kiss.
"Let's get going, Mister."
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
\\.::=TwentyEight=::.//
The whole night I cleaned my apartment. I had my own weekly routine. I normally cleaned Saturday night but Sidney kind of pushed plans aside. I really didnt mind though. My mind wondered about Em and if it was something to really worry about. I brushed my thoughts aside and headed to bed. I needed to worry about getting enough rest for my day off with Sid.
I woke up the next day full of energy and a text from Sid saying to be at his house around 8:30 and to not worry about eating. I was very excited to head out and see the city. Maybe Sidney and I knew of places that each other didn't know about. I took a shower and put some makeup on. I curled my hair loosely and picked out a comfortable outfit.
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I was meeting Sidney at his house. The drive was giving me gitters. I pulled into the drive way and parked. Making sure my appearance was perfect, I got out and walked to Sid's door. I knocked and stepped back a bit. "Good morning!" he smiled. "Lets get going."
He opened my door like a gentleman. We headed towards the city. It was my favorite feeling. "I love car rides. I'm like a dog," I laughed.
Sid grinned, "you're a goof ball. How is Millie by the way?" Referring to my dog.
I sighed, "She was put to sleep last year. She was very sick. I miss her like crazy but I'm too busy."
"Understandable. I wanted to bring my pooch home, but I've been so back and forth, it's best he's home with my parents."
I wanted to get this Em thing off of my chest before our day started. I knew it would bother me. "Sid," I said looking out of the window, gaining courage.
"Yeah?"
"Who's Em? The one you were on the phone with yesterday. I could over hear you."
He took in a deep breath. I knew it was going to be a long explanation. "Emily is a girl I've been seeing on and off for the last few months. We're not serious. She wants us to be, but I was never ready for that. I guess I just had a feeling something was going to happen soon." I looked over at him and saw his lips thinned out, thinking of the right way to put this. "She did stop by last night. I told her I saw you. I didn't say everything that happened, but I wanted both of you to know before you found out the wrong way. I'm not about hiding things."
His hand was resting on console, while driving with the left. I slipped my fingers between his. "I understand. Thanks for telling me."
He glanced over and smiled, "I planned on telling you today. I just didn't know when would be right." We hit a red light and he leaned over to kiss me. I could just feel how happy we both were together. It was a wonderful feeling. "We're almost to breakfast!" he said pulling away and getting ready for the light to change.
"Where are we going?" I loved breakfast time.
"Dorstop," he grinned.
"You the fucking best!" The little restaurant was my favorite. We ordered their famous pancakes and ham. We couldn't wait to get going and enjoy our day. "I hope you planned out everything, knowing everything will take at least an extra hour to get through," I said as we left the diner, after a few people got a picture with Sidney.
"Don't worry, Raina. I got this!" he said putting his arm around my waist, walking to the car. "So, do you like animals?" he asked getting into his car.
"Shut the hark up! You are not really taking me to the zoo, are you?!" I said excitedly. He just nodded. "Eeeeee!" I squeezed. "I can't freaking wait!"
The drive way pretty short and we got there right after the opened up. Not too many people were there for it being a school day and first thing in the morning. "I rented the place out for us," he winked.
"Shut up," I back handed him in the hard stomach.
"Hey! Don't do that after I ate a huge meal," he laughed. We took the long escalator up the hill. Once we got to the top we practically were running to the first animal. We saw many big cats and the Komodo Dragon. "I wanna see the polar bears!" Sid huffed.
I gave him this strange look and laughed. "We will get there, sweet heart," I said patting his back. We weren't stopped by too many people on the way through. Finally, we made it into the PPG Aquarium. I loved the penguins, obviously. "Sid! They're so freaking cute!" I said taking about 50 pictures of them.
"You guys want to pet them?" a worker asked behind us.
My eyes were huge and Sidney answered for me, "Of course!" We followed them and was brought a little waddling penguin over to us. "We should have never brought her in here. She might try to take this one home!" Sid laughed taking a video of me and the penguin.
"I have my own penguin, thanks!" I smiled. After loving the penguin, we made our way to the polar bear, but not without making Sidney try to climb through the stingray tunnel. He wasn't going for it. "Here you go, you big baby!" I said leading him to the polar bears.
He just laughed and grabbed my hand. "They're so awesome, Rain! I love them." We went into the underwater tunnel and just our luck, the big guy went for a swim. We continued with the tour and made it out around one. Sidney of course bought me presents before we left; a little polar bear and a huge penguin.
"Now where?!" I asked skipping the car with my new stuffed animals.
"Well, have you ever been to Phipps Conservatory?"
"Nope, don't that I know of."
He smiled and opened my door, "Good, that's our next stop."
I woke up the next day full of energy and a text from Sid saying to be at his house around 8:30 and to not worry about eating. I was very excited to head out and see the city. Maybe Sidney and I knew of places that each other didn't know about. I took a shower and put some makeup on. I curled my hair loosely and picked out a comfortable outfit.
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I was meeting Sidney at his house. The drive was giving me gitters. I pulled into the drive way and parked. Making sure my appearance was perfect, I got out and walked to Sid's door. I knocked and stepped back a bit. "Good morning!" he smiled. "Lets get going."
He opened my door like a gentleman. We headed towards the city. It was my favorite feeling. "I love car rides. I'm like a dog," I laughed.
Sid grinned, "you're a goof ball. How is Millie by the way?" Referring to my dog.
I sighed, "She was put to sleep last year. She was very sick. I miss her like crazy but I'm too busy."
"Understandable. I wanted to bring my pooch home, but I've been so back and forth, it's best he's home with my parents."
I wanted to get this Em thing off of my chest before our day started. I knew it would bother me. "Sid," I said looking out of the window, gaining courage.
"Yeah?"
"Who's Em? The one you were on the phone with yesterday. I could over hear you."
He took in a deep breath. I knew it was going to be a long explanation. "Emily is a girl I've been seeing on and off for the last few months. We're not serious. She wants us to be, but I was never ready for that. I guess I just had a feeling something was going to happen soon." I looked over at him and saw his lips thinned out, thinking of the right way to put this. "She did stop by last night. I told her I saw you. I didn't say everything that happened, but I wanted both of you to know before you found out the wrong way. I'm not about hiding things."
His hand was resting on console, while driving with the left. I slipped my fingers between his. "I understand. Thanks for telling me."
He glanced over and smiled, "I planned on telling you today. I just didn't know when would be right." We hit a red light and he leaned over to kiss me. I could just feel how happy we both were together. It was a wonderful feeling. "We're almost to breakfast!" he said pulling away and getting ready for the light to change.
"Where are we going?" I loved breakfast time.
"Dorstop," he grinned.
"You the fucking best!" The little restaurant was my favorite. We ordered their famous pancakes and ham. We couldn't wait to get going and enjoy our day. "I hope you planned out everything, knowing everything will take at least an extra hour to get through," I said as we left the diner, after a few people got a picture with Sidney.
"Don't worry, Raina. I got this!" he said putting his arm around my waist, walking to the car. "So, do you like animals?" he asked getting into his car.
"Shut the hark up! You are not really taking me to the zoo, are you?!" I said excitedly. He just nodded. "Eeeeee!" I squeezed. "I can't freaking wait!"
The drive way pretty short and we got there right after the opened up. Not too many people were there for it being a school day and first thing in the morning. "I rented the place out for us," he winked.
"Shut up," I back handed him in the hard stomach.
"Hey! Don't do that after I ate a huge meal," he laughed. We took the long escalator up the hill. Once we got to the top we practically were running to the first animal. We saw many big cats and the Komodo Dragon. "I wanna see the polar bears!" Sid huffed.
I gave him this strange look and laughed. "We will get there, sweet heart," I said patting his back. We weren't stopped by too many people on the way through. Finally, we made it into the PPG Aquarium. I loved the penguins, obviously. "Sid! They're so freaking cute!" I said taking about 50 pictures of them.
"You guys want to pet them?" a worker asked behind us.
My eyes were huge and Sidney answered for me, "Of course!" We followed them and was brought a little waddling penguin over to us. "We should have never brought her in here. She might try to take this one home!" Sid laughed taking a video of me and the penguin.
"I have my own penguin, thanks!" I smiled. After loving the penguin, we made our way to the polar bear, but not without making Sidney try to climb through the stingray tunnel. He wasn't going for it. "Here you go, you big baby!" I said leading him to the polar bears.
He just laughed and grabbed my hand. "They're so awesome, Rain! I love them." We went into the underwater tunnel and just our luck, the big guy went for a swim. We continued with the tour and made it out around one. Sidney of course bought me presents before we left; a little polar bear and a huge penguin.
"Now where?!" I asked skipping the car with my new stuffed animals.
"Well, have you ever been to Phipps Conservatory?"
"Nope, don't that I know of."
He smiled and opened my door, "Good, that's our next stop."
Monday, June 24, 2013
\\.::=TwentySeven=::.//
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*Sid's POV*
I woke up to my phone buzzing. I hurried to leave the room so I didn't wake up Raina. "Hello?"
"Hey, Sid!" Emily spoke from the other line. "Just wondered when I could stop by today to get my charger."
Peeking out the kitchen to make sure Raina was still sleeping, I sighed, "I don't know. Not today. I told you yesterday I could drop it off to you."
"Why have you been funny lately? I kinda wanted to see you."
My stomach was flip flopping. The girl who walked out of my life was only so many feet away in another room and the other who I've been seeing on and off for the last four months on the phone. Emily treated me good, but I couldn't make a commitment to her. "Listen, Em, I'm sorry but today isn't good. I have a headache. Maybe tomorrow or something."
"Whatever, Sid."
"Don't get mad."
"I'm not. I'll be there tomorrow morning."
"Okay, I'll see you then." I barely got my words out before she hung up. I let out a huff and headed to the bathroom. I walked back into the living room and found Riana stretching. Even though her hair was a mess and had no makeup, I found her beautiful. Pretty sure there's a rap song about a girl with her hair up, without makeup on chilling. It fit her right now.
After she left the house I just flopped on the couch. I felt so lazy with the lockout. Lazy and confused at this point. Why couldn't women be simple?! I let out an angry groan and threw a pillow to the other couch.
Figuring I would just lay here all day and not do shit, I decided to give Marc a call and see if he wanted to hit the gym in my basement. He agreed and arrived shortly after.
"Did Vero know she was coming back?" I asked jogging with Marc next to me.
"Nope. I meant she knew she was in the area lately, but didn't know she was so close. They really haven't talked in the last six months."
"Damn," I sighed and slowed down a bit. "Is it bad I kind of forgot about Emily?"
Marc grinned, "Nope. It's because she's just there to occupy you. I mean you care about her, I can see that, but she's not for you. Don't let her go just yet though. Raina could fall off the face of the Earth." I just nodded. "You need to at least tell both women about each other. I think if Raina finds out first, that would be bad! Emily would be pissed, but not do too much. Just because she's not as close with all of us. She's still feeling things out."
"True, and I don't want things ruined for good if Raina and I can't work things out. I think everyone would go back and try to make things right with their loved one if given the chance."
"Take this chance, dude. You never know if you'll get another one."
He was right. This was my only chance to make shit work.
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I called Emily to have her come over that night. I knew we needed to talk and let her in on what was going on. By her voice, she knew something wasn't right.
She came inside the house with a plate of brownies. "I brought your weakness," she grinned, kissing my cheek.
I smirked and set them down. Brownies without hockey games wasn't really what I needed. "Thanks, Em." She followed me into the kitchen and set down at the island as I stood on the other side. "So, what'd you do today," I asked, trying to avoid this much needed talk.
"Baked those for you, cleaned the house, helped Missy shop; not too much. You?" Emily was looking for answers with her eyes without saying much from her mouth. She was a beautiful girl and wonderful. So, it was making this much harder.
"Well, actually," I took a deep breath, "I hung out with a really good friend of mine. We had breakfast and all that."
"Oh yeah? Who's that?" she asked playing with her hair, something I noticed Raina do herself when she was nervous.
She knew of Raina and I knew if I said her name it would kill her. "Just an old friend from way back." Fuck, why did I have to be THAT guy.
"Oh, I see." She stood up and put her arms around my neck. "Let's watch a movie," she grinned.
I let out a chuckle, "Maybe you should just get your charger. I made plans to go out tomorrow and I wanna be well rested."
Emily cocked her head, dropping her arms. "You don't take me out much anymore. Why's that?"
"We just take things slow."
"Real slow," she said turning away and grabbing her purse. I just need to be up front.
"Emily," I grabbed her hand and turned her to face me. "Raina came back and I wanted to catch up." I could tell it hit her hard and I felt awful. "Don't be upset. I just want to see how she's been. We came a long way and if wouldn't feel right to pass this up. I'm sorry if you're mad but I just want you to understand. I'm telling you this now instead of letting you down and hurting you."
She couldn't look at me. "Just talk to me after your day. I understand." She gave me a kiss and walked out of the house without saying anything else. I just wanted to hit my head off of my wall at this point.
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*Sid's POV*
I woke up to my phone buzzing. I hurried to leave the room so I didn't wake up Raina. "Hello?"
"Hey, Sid!" Emily spoke from the other line. "Just wondered when I could stop by today to get my charger."
Peeking out the kitchen to make sure Raina was still sleeping, I sighed, "I don't know. Not today. I told you yesterday I could drop it off to you."
"Why have you been funny lately? I kinda wanted to see you."
My stomach was flip flopping. The girl who walked out of my life was only so many feet away in another room and the other who I've been seeing on and off for the last four months on the phone. Emily treated me good, but I couldn't make a commitment to her. "Listen, Em, I'm sorry but today isn't good. I have a headache. Maybe tomorrow or something."
"Whatever, Sid."
"Don't get mad."
"I'm not. I'll be there tomorrow morning."
"Okay, I'll see you then." I barely got my words out before she hung up. I let out a huff and headed to the bathroom. I walked back into the living room and found Riana stretching. Even though her hair was a mess and had no makeup, I found her beautiful. Pretty sure there's a rap song about a girl with her hair up, without makeup on chilling. It fit her right now.
After she left the house I just flopped on the couch. I felt so lazy with the lockout. Lazy and confused at this point. Why couldn't women be simple?! I let out an angry groan and threw a pillow to the other couch.
Figuring I would just lay here all day and not do shit, I decided to give Marc a call and see if he wanted to hit the gym in my basement. He agreed and arrived shortly after.
"Did Vero know she was coming back?" I asked jogging with Marc next to me.
"Nope. I meant she knew she was in the area lately, but didn't know she was so close. They really haven't talked in the last six months."
"Damn," I sighed and slowed down a bit. "Is it bad I kind of forgot about Emily?"
Marc grinned, "Nope. It's because she's just there to occupy you. I mean you care about her, I can see that, but she's not for you. Don't let her go just yet though. Raina could fall off the face of the Earth." I just nodded. "You need to at least tell both women about each other. I think if Raina finds out first, that would be bad! Emily would be pissed, but not do too much. Just because she's not as close with all of us. She's still feeling things out."
"True, and I don't want things ruined for good if Raina and I can't work things out. I think everyone would go back and try to make things right with their loved one if given the chance."
"Take this chance, dude. You never know if you'll get another one."
He was right. This was my only chance to make shit work.
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I called Emily to have her come over that night. I knew we needed to talk and let her in on what was going on. By her voice, she knew something wasn't right.
She came inside the house with a plate of brownies. "I brought your weakness," she grinned, kissing my cheek.
I smirked and set them down. Brownies without hockey games wasn't really what I needed. "Thanks, Em." She followed me into the kitchen and set down at the island as I stood on the other side. "So, what'd you do today," I asked, trying to avoid this much needed talk.
"Baked those for you, cleaned the house, helped Missy shop; not too much. You?" Emily was looking for answers with her eyes without saying much from her mouth. She was a beautiful girl and wonderful. So, it was making this much harder.
"Well, actually," I took a deep breath, "I hung out with a really good friend of mine. We had breakfast and all that."
"Oh yeah? Who's that?" she asked playing with her hair, something I noticed Raina do herself when she was nervous.
She knew of Raina and I knew if I said her name it would kill her. "Just an old friend from way back." Fuck, why did I have to be THAT guy.
"Oh, I see." She stood up and put her arms around my neck. "Let's watch a movie," she grinned.
I let out a chuckle, "Maybe you should just get your charger. I made plans to go out tomorrow and I wanna be well rested."
Emily cocked her head, dropping her arms. "You don't take me out much anymore. Why's that?"
"We just take things slow."
"Real slow," she said turning away and grabbing her purse. I just need to be up front.
"Emily," I grabbed her hand and turned her to face me. "Raina came back and I wanted to catch up." I could tell it hit her hard and I felt awful. "Don't be upset. I just want to see how she's been. We came a long way and if wouldn't feel right to pass this up. I'm sorry if you're mad but I just want you to understand. I'm telling you this now instead of letting you down and hurting you."
She couldn't look at me. "Just talk to me after your day. I understand." She gave me a kiss and walked out of the house without saying anything else. I just wanted to hit my head off of my wall at this point.
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I woke up with the sun shinning through the curtains. I looked to my side and remembered everything from last night. Sidney had his one arm around me and felt me move, so he pulled me closer. I couldn't tell if he was awake yet or still sleeping. "Good morning," his deep voice said softly in my ear.
"Morning, Sid," I turned to face him and grinned. It was a Sunday, which I had off. My two weekend days were Sunday and Monday.
"Want breakfast?" he asked with a hand on my hip.
"What time is it?" I yawned.
Sid looked over me to check the clock. "Almost eight."
I hated being so used to waking up early. "Can we go out for breakfast," I grinned, knowing I probably wasn't as attractive as he was making me feel. I didn't even have the chance to wash my makeup off of my face.
"Eat'n Park?" he questioned with a huge smile. "I hate cooking."
"Prefect! I love their muffins." I then remembered I didn't even have clothes on and I wasn't going to dare to wear the same outfit from last night to breakfast. "Uh, could you do me a favor?" I grinned.
"Hmh?" he hummed with an eyebrow lifted.
"Get a pair of yoga pants from my car? They're in my backseat. They're the only pair. And there's a plain black shirt, too."
"Sure, do you need a hoodie? It's gonna be cold today." He stood up and I just took in the sight of his amazing sculpted body. I just nodded and he put his boxers on to leave the room.
"Feel free to get ready. There's the bathroom," he point across the room. I went in to the backroom and took a fast shower as he left. I brought my purse with me to do light makeup and pulled my hair on top of my head. I walked out of the bathroom and saw Sidney freshly showered with a shirt on. "You had like six pairs of pants in there and about eight pairs of shoes!" he said, a little in shock.
"And you used to carry dress suits in your car, so I don't wanna hear shit, Crosby," I said snatching my pants from him. I grabbed the hoodie on his bed and changed in the bathroom. I felt like with his shirt off and me still naked, breakfast might not happen. I knew I was disappointing his wondering eyes. I brushed my teeth with a travel brush I kept with me and was ready to head out. I walked out and saw Sidney in jeans, running shoes, and a long sleeve shirt. "Ready?" I asked standing in front of him.
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"Yup," he said standing up and planting a kiss on my lips.
I knew I was smiling like a fool. I walked down the steps with him following me.
"Damn, that ass is not the same as four years ago," he said as I got to the bottom and realized he was checking me out.
"Sidney!" I said pretending to hit him. "You pig!"
"Hey! Now I have competition! That's all," he joked, opening up the door for me.
"I'm sure!"
He drove me the closest Eat'n Park and we pretty much went right to work. I forgot how weird it was to be with him in public. So many eyes were on us and whispering. A few times a kid would go to the buffet to talk to him. It took a little longer than usual to eat. I felt bad I drug him out.
We finally finished and got to the car. "I'm sorry, I forgot how annoying it is for you to eat out."
He shrugged it off. "Don't be. It's my life. You're the one that needs to be okay with it."
"True." I stared out of the window, realizing how tired I still was. "It's an ugly day," I said with my head against the window.
He turned onto his street and nodded, "Yeah, I hope winter isn't too bad. It just makes this lockout even longer. I just hope we have a season this year."
"I wouldn't look at it so negative. Take some time to visit family and take a trip! You ever go anywhere nice?" I asked as we arrived at his home.
"Eh," he sat there and pondered. "Nothing that didn't involved a hockey trip."
"That's your issue, dear," I said helping myself out of the car. We headed towards the door. "You need to go away and see the world!"
"Maybe if I had a good looking girl to take, I would consider. Although the one I have in mind has a career now!" I blushed. "Honestly, I'm so proud of you Raina. You turned yourself around. It's like you're a totally different person sometimes, but I still see the old you. You still draw me to you."
We were in front of his living room now and I just stood there with my arms crossed, biting my lip. "Thanks, Sid. Same can be said to you." I smiled and gave him a small kiss. "But really, I have two whole vacation weeks I can take and we and go somewhere! Maybe just for a few days. I wanted to save a week for after Christmas."
"Let's see what happens," he said sitting down on the couch. I kinda felt stupid thinking so far ahead. I needed to just relax and let things happen.
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We laid on the couch with our full bellies and we doze off here and there watching TV. I woke up around 12 and saw Sid's side of the couch empty. I could hear his voice in the kitchen and I followed it. He was on the phone and I started to walk back until something caught my attention.
"Listen, Em, I'm sorry but today isn't good. I have a headache. Maybe tomorrow or something... Don't get mad... Okay, I'll see you then."
I hurried to the couch to pretend I just woke up. He didn't come in right away. I was starting to wonder. I couldn't get mad. We didn't ask if we were seeing anyone and it has been a long time. I just up and left him. No need to stop the world for a girl who didn't stick around long enough to try to work things out, but we needed to grow up first. I just tried to justify myself.
Sid walked in the room and gave me a half smile, "How was your nap?"
I felt kinda sick at that point. "Good, but I think I'm gonna head home. I need to do somethings around the place with my day off so I can enjoy tomorrow."
He sighed and put his hands in his pockets. "Well," he paused for a second, "want to hang out tomorrow? We can go to the city and do tourist things? I don't really get to see much and it might be nice for us."
It made that sick feeling go away. "Sure!" I stood up and grabbed my belongings I set by the door. "Just text me later with what time and all that."
"I gladly will," he said opening the door and kissing my cheek. "See ya, Raina."
"Bye, Sid." The drive home was bitter sweet. Who was Em and why didn't Sidney want to see her today? What if she comes by after I leave? If he didn't want me around, he wouldn't of invited me out tomorrow, right?
"Morning, Sid," I turned to face him and grinned. It was a Sunday, which I had off. My two weekend days were Sunday and Monday.
"Want breakfast?" he asked with a hand on my hip.
"What time is it?" I yawned.
Sid looked over me to check the clock. "Almost eight."
I hated being so used to waking up early. "Can we go out for breakfast," I grinned, knowing I probably wasn't as attractive as he was making me feel. I didn't even have the chance to wash my makeup off of my face.
"Eat'n Park?" he questioned with a huge smile. "I hate cooking."
"Prefect! I love their muffins." I then remembered I didn't even have clothes on and I wasn't going to dare to wear the same outfit from last night to breakfast. "Uh, could you do me a favor?" I grinned.
"Hmh?" he hummed with an eyebrow lifted.
"Get a pair of yoga pants from my car? They're in my backseat. They're the only pair. And there's a plain black shirt, too."
"Sure, do you need a hoodie? It's gonna be cold today." He stood up and I just took in the sight of his amazing sculpted body. I just nodded and he put his boxers on to leave the room.
"Feel free to get ready. There's the bathroom," he point across the room. I went in to the backroom and took a fast shower as he left. I brought my purse with me to do light makeup and pulled my hair on top of my head. I walked out of the bathroom and saw Sidney freshly showered with a shirt on. "You had like six pairs of pants in there and about eight pairs of shoes!" he said, a little in shock.
"And you used to carry dress suits in your car, so I don't wanna hear shit, Crosby," I said snatching my pants from him. I grabbed the hoodie on his bed and changed in the bathroom. I felt like with his shirt off and me still naked, breakfast might not happen. I knew I was disappointing his wondering eyes. I brushed my teeth with a travel brush I kept with me and was ready to head out. I walked out and saw Sidney in jeans, running shoes, and a long sleeve shirt. "Ready?" I asked standing in front of him.
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"Yup," he said standing up and planting a kiss on my lips.
I knew I was smiling like a fool. I walked down the steps with him following me.
"Damn, that ass is not the same as four years ago," he said as I got to the bottom and realized he was checking me out.
"Sidney!" I said pretending to hit him. "You pig!"
"Hey! Now I have competition! That's all," he joked, opening up the door for me.
"I'm sure!"
He drove me the closest Eat'n Park and we pretty much went right to work. I forgot how weird it was to be with him in public. So many eyes were on us and whispering. A few times a kid would go to the buffet to talk to him. It took a little longer than usual to eat. I felt bad I drug him out.
We finally finished and got to the car. "I'm sorry, I forgot how annoying it is for you to eat out."
He shrugged it off. "Don't be. It's my life. You're the one that needs to be okay with it."
"True." I stared out of the window, realizing how tired I still was. "It's an ugly day," I said with my head against the window.
He turned onto his street and nodded, "Yeah, I hope winter isn't too bad. It just makes this lockout even longer. I just hope we have a season this year."
"I wouldn't look at it so negative. Take some time to visit family and take a trip! You ever go anywhere nice?" I asked as we arrived at his home.
"Eh," he sat there and pondered. "Nothing that didn't involved a hockey trip."
"That's your issue, dear," I said helping myself out of the car. We headed towards the door. "You need to go away and see the world!"
"Maybe if I had a good looking girl to take, I would consider. Although the one I have in mind has a career now!" I blushed. "Honestly, I'm so proud of you Raina. You turned yourself around. It's like you're a totally different person sometimes, but I still see the old you. You still draw me to you."
We were in front of his living room now and I just stood there with my arms crossed, biting my lip. "Thanks, Sid. Same can be said to you." I smiled and gave him a small kiss. "But really, I have two whole vacation weeks I can take and we and go somewhere! Maybe just for a few days. I wanted to save a week for after Christmas."
"Let's see what happens," he said sitting down on the couch. I kinda felt stupid thinking so far ahead. I needed to just relax and let things happen.
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We laid on the couch with our full bellies and we doze off here and there watching TV. I woke up around 12 and saw Sid's side of the couch empty. I could hear his voice in the kitchen and I followed it. He was on the phone and I started to walk back until something caught my attention.
"Listen, Em, I'm sorry but today isn't good. I have a headache. Maybe tomorrow or something... Don't get mad... Okay, I'll see you then."
I hurried to the couch to pretend I just woke up. He didn't come in right away. I was starting to wonder. I couldn't get mad. We didn't ask if we were seeing anyone and it has been a long time. I just up and left him. No need to stop the world for a girl who didn't stick around long enough to try to work things out, but we needed to grow up first. I just tried to justify myself.
Sid walked in the room and gave me a half smile, "How was your nap?"
I felt kinda sick at that point. "Good, but I think I'm gonna head home. I need to do somethings around the place with my day off so I can enjoy tomorrow."
He sighed and put his hands in his pockets. "Well," he paused for a second, "want to hang out tomorrow? We can go to the city and do tourist things? I don't really get to see much and it might be nice for us."
It made that sick feeling go away. "Sure!" I stood up and grabbed my belongings I set by the door. "Just text me later with what time and all that."
"I gladly will," he said opening the door and kissing my cheek. "See ya, Raina."
"Bye, Sid." The drive home was bitter sweet. Who was Em and why didn't Sidney want to see her today? What if she comes by after I leave? If he didn't want me around, he wouldn't of invited me out tomorrow, right?
Saturday, June 15, 2013
\\.::=TwentyFIve=::.//
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I took a final look at my outfit in the mirror.
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I was please and headed out of my apartment. I got inside of my Rover and headed to Sidney's. I drove up his long drive way and parked in front of the house. His drive way warped around and had another part, that I assumed was a garage. I got out and walked to the door. I felt over dressed, but I wanted to show Sidney the new side of me. I was ready to take over the fashion world and take chances. I took a deep breath and rang his door bell. He opened the door rather quickly.
A smile grew on his face from ear to ear, as butterflies took over my stomach. "Come inside!" he said leading me in. I looked around his home and felt warm. It was very clean for a boy living here. Then again I'm sure he pays someone to clean it more than once a week. "Sit down in the living room, there. I'm gonna finish getting ready." He was only in shorts and a tee shirt. It made me hope he didn't plan on just eating here or some where casual and then have to change because of me.
I looked around at his home and kind of wondered off beyond the living room. His kitchen led to the back yard, which was huge. He didn't have a pool, which I could understand why. He went home for the summer and wouldn't need one here. I walked outback, which was dark already, and an automatic light came on. He had a nice set up with a grill and bar with a big table and chairs. I felt nosy but I couldn't help it. I loved looking around houses.
The night air was amazing and I felt so at peace. Sid's home was definitely somewhere I felt comfortable. I heard the door behind me open up and I quickly turned and smiled. "Sorry, I couldn't resist," I laughed.
Sidney was dressed in dress pants and a black dress shirt. It was simple, but very handsome. He changed so much in just a few years. "It's alright," he said, smiling, and shut the door behind him. "I love just sitting out here at night and enjoying the weather. I love just being in silence." I turned to look at the back yard and felt his arms snake around my waist. "We could just stay here all night, but I'm starving!"
I broke out in a laughter and sighed, "Let's get some food for that belly!" I poked him in his toned stomach and made him giggle. He drove me into Pittsburgh and took me to Casbah in Shadyside. We sat outside since it was still warm out. "This is beautiful," I said taking in my surroundings.
"I was hoping you'd like it," he said taking his menu and looking over the options. "You like Chardonnay?" he asked peering over his menu.
"I don't drink much, but sure. I'll have a taste!" I ordered grilled swordfish, only by Sidney practically ordering for me. I hated spending so much on dinner. I always put money away for a house, since I was almost finished paying off my car. I worked very hard to own everything I did. Our dinner was wonderful and I was feeling pretty good from the wine. I was extra flirty, along with Sidney. He was touching my leg from under the table and told me I was beautiful about 6 times since we sat down. I didn't mind though. I told him a little about getting into beauty school and the work I did. He bitched about the lockout, which I understood completely. I would be so lost if I couldn't go to my job every day.
"We must have dessert," he said reviewing the menu again. "Chocolate cheesecake?" he asked biting his lip.
"I surely hope that was an answer and not a question! Bring that our way!" I exclaimed. We finally finished up and walked to the car. He opened my door me before I got in. We drove back to his house listening to Pandora and rapping to the most gangster songs we could find.
We reached his house and he ran to my side to open my door. I got out and started to walk to my car. "It was a lovely night," I said looking at my feet, to shy to look at him. He just made me smile like an idiot.
"Me too," he said with his hands in his pockets. I feel like he was stumbling over his words and didn't really catch what I said. I just let out a giggle. He then took his hands out of his pocket and pressed me against the car. His lips crashed onto mine and his body on top of me. "Stay with me," he mumbled into my ear. I looked at him and couldn't say no. Either my mind couldn't or the wine couldn't. But I wasn't fighting it. I agreed and followed him inside the house leaving my purse and shoes at the front door. I didn't work in the morning so I knew I had nothing to worry about. I followed him up the steps into his master bedroom. He didn't bother to turn the lights on and shut the door. All we had was the moon lighting up the room. My eyes adjusted to the dark and was swiftly picked up. I wrapped my legs around his waist and he laid me on top of the bed. Our lips were hungry for each other. From forgetting how to kiss the day before, I felt like it was a body I knew my way around perfectly. We slowly undressed each other and he hovered over top of me.
This wasn't a drunk decision at this point. I wanted Sidney more than anything. After letting my heart go from everything I experienced, I knew this was the bed I belonged in.
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I took a final look at my outfit in the mirror.
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I was please and headed out of my apartment. I got inside of my Rover and headed to Sidney's. I drove up his long drive way and parked in front of the house. His drive way warped around and had another part, that I assumed was a garage. I got out and walked to the door. I felt over dressed, but I wanted to show Sidney the new side of me. I was ready to take over the fashion world and take chances. I took a deep breath and rang his door bell. He opened the door rather quickly.
A smile grew on his face from ear to ear, as butterflies took over my stomach. "Come inside!" he said leading me in. I looked around his home and felt warm. It was very clean for a boy living here. Then again I'm sure he pays someone to clean it more than once a week. "Sit down in the living room, there. I'm gonna finish getting ready." He was only in shorts and a tee shirt. It made me hope he didn't plan on just eating here or some where casual and then have to change because of me.
I looked around at his home and kind of wondered off beyond the living room. His kitchen led to the back yard, which was huge. He didn't have a pool, which I could understand why. He went home for the summer and wouldn't need one here. I walked outback, which was dark already, and an automatic light came on. He had a nice set up with a grill and bar with a big table and chairs. I felt nosy but I couldn't help it. I loved looking around houses.
The night air was amazing and I felt so at peace. Sid's home was definitely somewhere I felt comfortable. I heard the door behind me open up and I quickly turned and smiled. "Sorry, I couldn't resist," I laughed.
Sidney was dressed in dress pants and a black dress shirt. It was simple, but very handsome. He changed so much in just a few years. "It's alright," he said, smiling, and shut the door behind him. "I love just sitting out here at night and enjoying the weather. I love just being in silence." I turned to look at the back yard and felt his arms snake around my waist. "We could just stay here all night, but I'm starving!"
I broke out in a laughter and sighed, "Let's get some food for that belly!" I poked him in his toned stomach and made him giggle. He drove me into Pittsburgh and took me to Casbah in Shadyside. We sat outside since it was still warm out. "This is beautiful," I said taking in my surroundings.
"I was hoping you'd like it," he said taking his menu and looking over the options. "You like Chardonnay?" he asked peering over his menu.
"I don't drink much, but sure. I'll have a taste!" I ordered grilled swordfish, only by Sidney practically ordering for me. I hated spending so much on dinner. I always put money away for a house, since I was almost finished paying off my car. I worked very hard to own everything I did. Our dinner was wonderful and I was feeling pretty good from the wine. I was extra flirty, along with Sidney. He was touching my leg from under the table and told me I was beautiful about 6 times since we sat down. I didn't mind though. I told him a little about getting into beauty school and the work I did. He bitched about the lockout, which I understood completely. I would be so lost if I couldn't go to my job every day.
"We must have dessert," he said reviewing the menu again. "Chocolate cheesecake?" he asked biting his lip.
"I surely hope that was an answer and not a question! Bring that our way!" I exclaimed. We finally finished up and walked to the car. He opened my door me before I got in. We drove back to his house listening to Pandora and rapping to the most gangster songs we could find.
We reached his house and he ran to my side to open my door. I got out and started to walk to my car. "It was a lovely night," I said looking at my feet, to shy to look at him. He just made me smile like an idiot.
"Me too," he said with his hands in his pockets. I feel like he was stumbling over his words and didn't really catch what I said. I just let out a giggle. He then took his hands out of his pocket and pressed me against the car. His lips crashed onto mine and his body on top of me. "Stay with me," he mumbled into my ear. I looked at him and couldn't say no. Either my mind couldn't or the wine couldn't. But I wasn't fighting it. I agreed and followed him inside the house leaving my purse and shoes at the front door. I didn't work in the morning so I knew I had nothing to worry about. I followed him up the steps into his master bedroom. He didn't bother to turn the lights on and shut the door. All we had was the moon lighting up the room. My eyes adjusted to the dark and was swiftly picked up. I wrapped my legs around his waist and he laid me on top of the bed. Our lips were hungry for each other. From forgetting how to kiss the day before, I felt like it was a body I knew my way around perfectly. We slowly undressed each other and he hovered over top of me.
This wasn't a drunk decision at this point. I wanted Sidney more than anything. After letting my heart go from everything I experienced, I knew this was the bed I belonged in.
Friday, June 14, 2013
\\.::=TwentyFour=::.//
"Raina?" he said, almost speechless.
"Hey," I said shuffling my feet. The last player, Kris, got up and walked away awkwardly.
"You know her, Sid" Kris asked.
"I did," he said not leaving his eyes from me. I could tell the other guy didn't want part of this and walked away, into the hall way. The rest of the remaining help and players exited as well. The last one out, James, shut the door. They must of knew Sidney meant business.
"How have you been?" I asked trying to clean my mess up a little bit, so I had something other to look at besides Sidney. I felt as if you could see my heart beating through my shirt.
"Busy, you?" he said setting a few papers down and sitting in the chair for me to work on him.
"Same." I was very short and started to feel myself sweat. This was just just an asshole move by fate, once again.
"Haven't seen you around in a while. Since you broke up with me." I knew he was trying to get to me.
I clenched my power brush and stared him right in the eye. "Well, sorry I went to get my shit together while you took the last four years to grow the fuck up," I spat.
"You know what, fuck it. I don't need this shit to look good," he said standing up and pushing past me. He went to open the door as I let out a small yelp. I could feel my body just wanting to hit the floor. I knew this was happening for a reason; to make things right. Sidney stopped and stood there for a moment before dropping his shoulders and sighing. "Why did it take so long for us to come back together?" he asked, putting his hands in his pocket.
He turned to face me as I plopped into the chair. "I guess we both needed some growing up to do." I rolled my makeup brush around my hand in small circles. "I'm sorry I had to leave the way I did, but it was in my heart."
"I'm happy you did. It made me realize there's more to life than just hockey and fame." He pulled a chair in front of me and sat down. He took my small hands into his. "I'm sorry I pushed you away. I could of made it right the first time." I didn't know what to say. I slightly made an ass out of myself. I was pretty good at running away from my problems. "What if we're too different now?"
I looked up at him with warm tears and my stomach filled with butterflies. I was never so happy, nervous, scared, and pissed all at once. "Let's find out," I said leaning in and kissing him. It was the first time I took matter into my own hands, and by that was pretty much Sidney's face. Our lips touched and felt like a puzzle piece fitting perfectly. A surge went through my whole body. I wasn't thinking much, but I felt like I totally forgot how to move my body and even kiss like a normal person. I thought I was probably putting my tongue down his throat. He didn't stop though. He just kept kissing me and felt his hand hold my face and the other grasp my hair.
There was a knock and the door opened to interrupt us. "Uh, sorry. We just need to hurry, Sid," said one of his teammates.
"No Problem. Sorry," he said scratching the back of his neck. The player shut the door and I felt my face hot. I knew I was blushing as bad as Sidney. "Let's get me flawless and rock this commercial," he laughed.
I finished up Sid and cleaned up while he headed down the hall. I needed to go with him just to make sure no touch ups were needed. I hurried down there, mostly just so I could be around Sidney. "Raina!" a female called out. I turned to see Vero. "Oh my god! I can't believe it's you! What are you doing here?!"
I could only smile and give her a hug. "I could say the same about you, where's Marc?"
He's in Canada visiting family. I came to get my wallet I left in Geno's car last night after we dropped Marc off at the airport. But what the hell! You in the same room as Sid?!" she said just above a whisper.
I chuckled, thinking it was a crazy situation. "I'm not sure. I came to do makeup for a commercial and it ended up to be a bunch of sweaty hockey men!" I filled her in on the last few experiences of the last year. We spoke but mostly around holidays and birthdays.
"I still am in shock, but I'm so happy, honestly. I'm really hoping this is the time, you know?"
"Trust me, I know. I do as well," I said just staring at Sidney from across the room. It's true when they say in a room full of people a smile can light up the room. His did just that. The two hours went fast and we were free to go home. Veronica left earlier and made sure to go have lunch this week on my day off. I headed to my car with all of my stuff when I noticed foot steps behind me.
"I got it!" Sid said grabbing my suitcase. "Lead the way!"
I smiled, "Thanks! You didn't have to."
"If I want to make you agree to a date, yes. I had to." I just laughed it off and led him to my Range Rover. "Copy cat!" he said as I opened my hatch.
"Hey! You can't be the only one in style!" I set some of my bags inside and Sidney lifted in my suitcase. "So, when are you asking me to dinner?" I asked shutting the hatch.
"Ohhh, this girl means business!" he grinned, pulling me into him. "Tonight, meet me at my house. And if you don't still have my number, don't bother at all!"
"Sid!" I said slapping him. "Text me it, I know it's because you deleted mine!"
He was busted. "Okay, okay." He pulled out his phone and had me put in my number, which was different over the years. "I'll text you directions and see you at six." He kissed my cheek making my blush. "Bye, Raina."
"Bye, Sid."
"Hey," I said shuffling my feet. The last player, Kris, got up and walked away awkwardly.
"You know her, Sid" Kris asked.
"I did," he said not leaving his eyes from me. I could tell the other guy didn't want part of this and walked away, into the hall way. The rest of the remaining help and players exited as well. The last one out, James, shut the door. They must of knew Sidney meant business.
"How have you been?" I asked trying to clean my mess up a little bit, so I had something other to look at besides Sidney. I felt as if you could see my heart beating through my shirt.
"Busy, you?" he said setting a few papers down and sitting in the chair for me to work on him.
"Same." I was very short and started to feel myself sweat. This was just just an asshole move by fate, once again.
"Haven't seen you around in a while. Since you broke up with me." I knew he was trying to get to me.
I clenched my power brush and stared him right in the eye. "Well, sorry I went to get my shit together while you took the last four years to grow the fuck up," I spat.
"You know what, fuck it. I don't need this shit to look good," he said standing up and pushing past me. He went to open the door as I let out a small yelp. I could feel my body just wanting to hit the floor. I knew this was happening for a reason; to make things right. Sidney stopped and stood there for a moment before dropping his shoulders and sighing. "Why did it take so long for us to come back together?" he asked, putting his hands in his pocket.
He turned to face me as I plopped into the chair. "I guess we both needed some growing up to do." I rolled my makeup brush around my hand in small circles. "I'm sorry I had to leave the way I did, but it was in my heart."
"I'm happy you did. It made me realize there's more to life than just hockey and fame." He pulled a chair in front of me and sat down. He took my small hands into his. "I'm sorry I pushed you away. I could of made it right the first time." I didn't know what to say. I slightly made an ass out of myself. I was pretty good at running away from my problems. "What if we're too different now?"
I looked up at him with warm tears and my stomach filled with butterflies. I was never so happy, nervous, scared, and pissed all at once. "Let's find out," I said leaning in and kissing him. It was the first time I took matter into my own hands, and by that was pretty much Sidney's face. Our lips touched and felt like a puzzle piece fitting perfectly. A surge went through my whole body. I wasn't thinking much, but I felt like I totally forgot how to move my body and even kiss like a normal person. I thought I was probably putting my tongue down his throat. He didn't stop though. He just kept kissing me and felt his hand hold my face and the other grasp my hair.
There was a knock and the door opened to interrupt us. "Uh, sorry. We just need to hurry, Sid," said one of his teammates.
"No Problem. Sorry," he said scratching the back of his neck. The player shut the door and I felt my face hot. I knew I was blushing as bad as Sidney. "Let's get me flawless and rock this commercial," he laughed.
I finished up Sid and cleaned up while he headed down the hall. I needed to go with him just to make sure no touch ups were needed. I hurried down there, mostly just so I could be around Sidney. "Raina!" a female called out. I turned to see Vero. "Oh my god! I can't believe it's you! What are you doing here?!"
I could only smile and give her a hug. "I could say the same about you, where's Marc?"
He's in Canada visiting family. I came to get my wallet I left in Geno's car last night after we dropped Marc off at the airport. But what the hell! You in the same room as Sid?!" she said just above a whisper.
I chuckled, thinking it was a crazy situation. "I'm not sure. I came to do makeup for a commercial and it ended up to be a bunch of sweaty hockey men!" I filled her in on the last few experiences of the last year. We spoke but mostly around holidays and birthdays.
"I still am in shock, but I'm so happy, honestly. I'm really hoping this is the time, you know?"
"Trust me, I know. I do as well," I said just staring at Sidney from across the room. It's true when they say in a room full of people a smile can light up the room. His did just that. The two hours went fast and we were free to go home. Veronica left earlier and made sure to go have lunch this week on my day off. I headed to my car with all of my stuff when I noticed foot steps behind me.
"I got it!" Sid said grabbing my suitcase. "Lead the way!"
I smiled, "Thanks! You didn't have to."
"If I want to make you agree to a date, yes. I had to." I just laughed it off and led him to my Range Rover. "Copy cat!" he said as I opened my hatch.
"Hey! You can't be the only one in style!" I set some of my bags inside and Sidney lifted in my suitcase. "So, when are you asking me to dinner?" I asked shutting the hatch.
"Ohhh, this girl means business!" he grinned, pulling me into him. "Tonight, meet me at my house. And if you don't still have my number, don't bother at all!"
"Sid!" I said slapping him. "Text me it, I know it's because you deleted mine!"
He was busted. "Okay, okay." He pulled out his phone and had me put in my number, which was different over the years. "I'll text you directions and see you at six." He kissed my cheek making my blush. "Bye, Raina."
"Bye, Sid."
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I had a photo shoot to do for a commercial through Root Sports. It was only the middle of October and it was still pretty warm. I was in jeans and a loose baseball tee with flip flops.
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I walked into the building and took direction from the girl at the front desk. I went up in an elevator and down through a few halls before finding the dressing room. I opened it up and struggled inside with my makeup suitcase. I always brought everything with me on a job.
"Oh, miss, let me help you," a man came over and helped grab my bags.
"Thanks!" I smiled. He was very attractive and muscular. He had a tint of red in his facial hair and a beautiful smile. I feel for smiles. "This is the only down fall of my job, honestly," I laughed, making conversation.
He smiled, "Really? I would think making ugly people look beautiful would be harder than that. Fuck my job, I'm becoming a hair dresser!" He threw his arms in the air and make me laugh. "Hey guys! The makeup girl is here to make us attractive beasts!" he shouted into the other room. "I'm James Neal, by the way."
"Raina," I said shaking his hand. "Pleasure to meet you."
"Beautiful name!" he said as a few men walked into the room. I then noticed a few more guys.
Fuck, I'm doing a commercial for the Penguins. Malkin was the only really familiar face I knew. I didn't see Sid or Flower, so that was a sigh of relief. "I'm going to start on you guys now. It shouldn't take more than 15 minutes. I know they're about ready to start shooting you guys. I want to make this as painless as possible for you all," I joked. I loved doing guys makeup for things like this. They always giggled as you put powder on them.
A few guys asked me questions about a boyfriend and where I was from. "Well, I'm from the area. I moved around a bit. I just got out of a long relationship. I'm trying to get past it," I said reflecting on the last almost three years. I did date after Sidney just to tickle the sting of loneliness, but it became much more than that. It was as if I was practicing on how to love a person again.
Three years ago
I was meeting a friend of Lily's she was hooking me up with. It was a while since I broke things off with Sid and I just finished with beauty school. The boys name was Travis. From what he sounded like, he wasn't the jock type. He played a few sports growing up, but went to school for engineering and worked for his family on the weekends and summer. It was Christmas time and the malls were busy, but we decided to meet up there and see a movie.
I saw a boy that fit his description and led myself towards him. "Travis?" I asked, now standing in front of his table.
"Hey! Yeah, that's me! Raina, right?"
"Yup, hope you weren't meeting any other girl here!" I laughed.
"Nope! Just one beautiful blonde is all!" His smile was enough to knock me off of my feet. That was the start of a train wreck.
Travis and I fell fast. I moved quickly with him, from sex to us talking about marriage. He made me take a slight backseat to starting my career. We only dated for about ten months before things were cut short. We practically hated one another at one point. We would always talk to our friends to get back at one another. He always treated me like shit, I was a puppet to him. I was wanting love so badly, I just accepted it. His life was falling apart and I was breaking with him. Finally, I had to end things after over two years. It was draining and I needed to get back on track. We just stopped speaking once I found out he had another girl on the side. We never talked it out. I just blocked his number and went my own way. I built my business and became very successful in six months. It was the best choice of my life.
I was brought back to reality. I sighed and noticed I was just about finished, but heard another voice coming down the hall. "I'll be there!" The voice turned the corner and into the room. "Sorry, I'm late! I had an interview."
My body froze. I knew that wondering voice. Sidney Crosby. I finished the last player I had and turned around. Sidney wouldn't of recognized me from behind, with longer, curled hair and a more mature body. I looked at him dead in the eyes and we both froze.
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I walked into the building and took direction from the girl at the front desk. I went up in an elevator and down through a few halls before finding the dressing room. I opened it up and struggled inside with my makeup suitcase. I always brought everything with me on a job.
"Oh, miss, let me help you," a man came over and helped grab my bags.
"Thanks!" I smiled. He was very attractive and muscular. He had a tint of red in his facial hair and a beautiful smile. I feel for smiles. "This is the only down fall of my job, honestly," I laughed, making conversation.
He smiled, "Really? I would think making ugly people look beautiful would be harder than that. Fuck my job, I'm becoming a hair dresser!" He threw his arms in the air and make me laugh. "Hey guys! The makeup girl is here to make us attractive beasts!" he shouted into the other room. "I'm James Neal, by the way."
"Raina," I said shaking his hand. "Pleasure to meet you."
"Beautiful name!" he said as a few men walked into the room. I then noticed a few more guys.
Fuck, I'm doing a commercial for the Penguins. Malkin was the only really familiar face I knew. I didn't see Sid or Flower, so that was a sigh of relief. "I'm going to start on you guys now. It shouldn't take more than 15 minutes. I know they're about ready to start shooting you guys. I want to make this as painless as possible for you all," I joked. I loved doing guys makeup for things like this. They always giggled as you put powder on them.
A few guys asked me questions about a boyfriend and where I was from. "Well, I'm from the area. I moved around a bit. I just got out of a long relationship. I'm trying to get past it," I said reflecting on the last almost three years. I did date after Sidney just to tickle the sting of loneliness, but it became much more than that. It was as if I was practicing on how to love a person again.
Three years ago
I was meeting a friend of Lily's she was hooking me up with. It was a while since I broke things off with Sid and I just finished with beauty school. The boys name was Travis. From what he sounded like, he wasn't the jock type. He played a few sports growing up, but went to school for engineering and worked for his family on the weekends and summer. It was Christmas time and the malls were busy, but we decided to meet up there and see a movie.
I saw a boy that fit his description and led myself towards him. "Travis?" I asked, now standing in front of his table.
"Hey! Yeah, that's me! Raina, right?"
"Yup, hope you weren't meeting any other girl here!" I laughed.
"Nope! Just one beautiful blonde is all!" His smile was enough to knock me off of my feet. That was the start of a train wreck.
Travis and I fell fast. I moved quickly with him, from sex to us talking about marriage. He made me take a slight backseat to starting my career. We only dated for about ten months before things were cut short. We practically hated one another at one point. We would always talk to our friends to get back at one another. He always treated me like shit, I was a puppet to him. I was wanting love so badly, I just accepted it. His life was falling apart and I was breaking with him. Finally, I had to end things after over two years. It was draining and I needed to get back on track. We just stopped speaking once I found out he had another girl on the side. We never talked it out. I just blocked his number and went my own way. I built my business and became very successful in six months. It was the best choice of my life.
I was brought back to reality. I sighed and noticed I was just about finished, but heard another voice coming down the hall. "I'll be there!" The voice turned the corner and into the room. "Sorry, I'm late! I had an interview."
My body froze. I knew that wondering voice. Sidney Crosby. I finished the last player I had and turned around. Sidney wouldn't of recognized me from behind, with longer, curled hair and a more mature body. I looked at him dead in the eyes and we both froze.
A Small Recap
I wanted to write a small recap of the story, for you who don't feel like rereading the first 21 chapters.
Raina was in high school when her boyfriend he was engaged to was shot and killed by his brother's friend over drugs his brother, Kenny, was addicted to. After a few years, Raina became a day teacher and took her kids to a Penguin practice where she met Sidney trying to help her set up for the event the night before. He gave her two tickets to the game during practice. She slowly let him in her heart and let him see what she went through and why she wore her ring still. Justin left her a note to find love, but she felt trapped in her 17 year mind.
Justin's brother and friend were convicted for murder and Raina moved to Canada to spend time away from Pittsburgh to feel safe until Sidney sprained his ankle. She ran home to carter to him, but over the few months, he became frustrated and took it out on her. After he lost the Red Wings, they became distant and he broke things off with him.
You can read the last new chapter, 22, and tell me what you think. Part of the summery included the new chapter. Please tell me what you think!!
Raina was in high school when her boyfriend he was engaged to was shot and killed by his brother's friend over drugs his brother, Kenny, was addicted to. After a few years, Raina became a day teacher and took her kids to a Penguin practice where she met Sidney trying to help her set up for the event the night before. He gave her two tickets to the game during practice. She slowly let him in her heart and let him see what she went through and why she wore her ring still. Justin left her a note to find love, but she felt trapped in her 17 year mind.
Justin's brother and friend were convicted for murder and Raina moved to Canada to spend time away from Pittsburgh to feel safe until Sidney sprained his ankle. She ran home to carter to him, but over the few months, he became frustrated and took it out on her. After he lost the Red Wings, they became distant and he broke things off with him.
You can read the last new chapter, 22, and tell me what you think. Part of the summery included the new chapter. Please tell me what you think!!
\\.::=Twenty-Two=::.//
It's been a long time since I wrote and I feel like I need to get back into it. I hope old and new people can get back in my story. Feel free to take the time to read it through again and get caught up. This chapter is speeding through a few years to get caught up in time. I hope you like it and enjoy the change. Please let me know how you like it and would like to see where the story leads!
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It seemed like the longest weeks of my life helping Sidney recover. I was back to feeling safe and felt a little silly for running from my problems. All of my belongs were sent back home. Milly and I practically lived at Mario's with Sidney. He tried to return to hockey, but after two games, he realized he wasn't ready to return. He quickly got back into the grove once he was fully healed, and entered the playoffs. We had extremely high hopes to end the post season, but fell short in game six against the Red Wings. Sidney wasn't a pleasure to be around for the next month.
We were fighting pretty bad and I decided it was time for me to leave for a little and spend time with my real family. With Sidney supporting me, I didn't have a job anymore, and I felt dependent. I needed to get back to having my own life. I headed outside of the city, near Canonsburg. I spent a good few weeks with aunts and uncles, catching up on life and went back to my foster family. Sidney headed back to Nova Scotia. I hated the feeling of emptiness. I felt like we barely talked.
Maybe this all happened to fast. Falling in love and moving in together always seems to be a disaster when you jump right into it. I decided it was time to visit an old loved one; Justin. I rode to the cemetery alone in silence. I stopped the car and walked to his headstone. It was a beautiful day to spend with him. I brought my favorite flowers he used to surprise me with.
I sat down and ran my fingers over his name. "It's been a long time," I sighed. I swore I felt a hand on my shoulder. "I just feel so lost, Justin. You wanted me to find love, but why is it so hard for me?" Warm tears filled my eyes. "I just need to know if you're truly ready for me to move on and be happy again. There is so much hate inside of me." In the corner on my eye, I saw a baby bird in a tree with his family. "Lets make a deal!" I grinned. Justin and I were all about fate and see if things were really meant to be. "If that baby bird flies, I'm moving on. But if not, it's just not my time." I could just see Justin laughing and saying, "Okay, we'll see."
I stared and sighed. The bird looked just like me, pathetic! I just felt like today wasn't the little guys day. I sat there until the sun was too hot for me to bare. "Well, looks like it's not my time," I said standing up and blew Justin a kiss.
I knew I had to break things off with Sidney. It just wasn't my time to be committed to him when my heart still wasn't fully healed. I reminded myself, I could love again, but not just yet.
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It was very painful with Sidney. I flew to his home that summer to tell him I needed to catch back up in my own life and let him handle his first big lose alone. I needed to find who I was again and become my own person once again.
Years went by, the Penguins won the cup and Sidney seemed to be on top of the world. I was so happy for him. It was bittersweet I wasn't there to enjoy the win with him. I was in touch with him before the playoffs, but we slowly fell apart again. I went to school to become a hairdresser and makeup artist. My interest changed a lot over the years. I loved kids, but I just needed something to bring me away from my teen years and Justin. A lot even reminded me of Sidney.
The year 2012 was very difficult for Sidney. I watched him suffer his concussion and knew he was struggling. The season coming up was rough. There would be a lock out and Sidney would have too much free time and being torn away from his life. I on the other hand, was working in a huge salon a little outside of Pittsburgh. I did makeup and hair for many magazines and commercials. I felt like I truly found my calling. I was so happy again. It was like I had a new life. Vero was one of the few friends I kept from the team. I would hear from Colby here and there from his new team and even Max. I would call him a trader just about every time we spoke. I couldn't believe how much had changed since I broke things off with Sidney.
Four years went by and it just felt like a blur. I had my own house, beautiful SUV, my business was fantastic. I just felt ready to settle down. With Sidney? Well, if I was in the same boat this time in 2008, of course. I just had to except that part of my life is over.
That fall I went to visit Justin. It had been a good while since I had. I looked up and saw another little nest close to before. "That's weird, birds shouldn't be having babies this time of the year," I thought out loud. I stood up and saw a baby trying to fly. "Justin, stop doing this to," I muttered. Just then the baby took off. I smiled and felt myself free. "If you're a bird I'm a bird!" I laughed. "I'm sorry, baby, but it's time for me to move on." I had my ring on my finger and knew it was time to leave it behind. I moved the flowers I brought to his grave and drug a good size hole, and buried my ring inside a small box I found in my car. "I will always love you. Thank you letting me free."
This was my time to finally live my life like I never had before.
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It seemed like the longest weeks of my life helping Sidney recover. I was back to feeling safe and felt a little silly for running from my problems. All of my belongs were sent back home. Milly and I practically lived at Mario's with Sidney. He tried to return to hockey, but after two games, he realized he wasn't ready to return. He quickly got back into the grove once he was fully healed, and entered the playoffs. We had extremely high hopes to end the post season, but fell short in game six against the Red Wings. Sidney wasn't a pleasure to be around for the next month.
We were fighting pretty bad and I decided it was time for me to leave for a little and spend time with my real family. With Sidney supporting me, I didn't have a job anymore, and I felt dependent. I needed to get back to having my own life. I headed outside of the city, near Canonsburg. I spent a good few weeks with aunts and uncles, catching up on life and went back to my foster family. Sidney headed back to Nova Scotia. I hated the feeling of emptiness. I felt like we barely talked.
Maybe this all happened to fast. Falling in love and moving in together always seems to be a disaster when you jump right into it. I decided it was time to visit an old loved one; Justin. I rode to the cemetery alone in silence. I stopped the car and walked to his headstone. It was a beautiful day to spend with him. I brought my favorite flowers he used to surprise me with.
I sat down and ran my fingers over his name. "It's been a long time," I sighed. I swore I felt a hand on my shoulder. "I just feel so lost, Justin. You wanted me to find love, but why is it so hard for me?" Warm tears filled my eyes. "I just need to know if you're truly ready for me to move on and be happy again. There is so much hate inside of me." In the corner on my eye, I saw a baby bird in a tree with his family. "Lets make a deal!" I grinned. Justin and I were all about fate and see if things were really meant to be. "If that baby bird flies, I'm moving on. But if not, it's just not my time." I could just see Justin laughing and saying, "Okay, we'll see."
I stared and sighed. The bird looked just like me, pathetic! I just felt like today wasn't the little guys day. I sat there until the sun was too hot for me to bare. "Well, looks like it's not my time," I said standing up and blew Justin a kiss.
I knew I had to break things off with Sidney. It just wasn't my time to be committed to him when my heart still wasn't fully healed. I reminded myself, I could love again, but not just yet.
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It was very painful with Sidney. I flew to his home that summer to tell him I needed to catch back up in my own life and let him handle his first big lose alone. I needed to find who I was again and become my own person once again.
Years went by, the Penguins won the cup and Sidney seemed to be on top of the world. I was so happy for him. It was bittersweet I wasn't there to enjoy the win with him. I was in touch with him before the playoffs, but we slowly fell apart again. I went to school to become a hairdresser and makeup artist. My interest changed a lot over the years. I loved kids, but I just needed something to bring me away from my teen years and Justin. A lot even reminded me of Sidney.
The year 2012 was very difficult for Sidney. I watched him suffer his concussion and knew he was struggling. The season coming up was rough. There would be a lock out and Sidney would have too much free time and being torn away from his life. I on the other hand, was working in a huge salon a little outside of Pittsburgh. I did makeup and hair for many magazines and commercials. I felt like I truly found my calling. I was so happy again. It was like I had a new life. Vero was one of the few friends I kept from the team. I would hear from Colby here and there from his new team and even Max. I would call him a trader just about every time we spoke. I couldn't believe how much had changed since I broke things off with Sidney.
Four years went by and it just felt like a blur. I had my own house, beautiful SUV, my business was fantastic. I just felt ready to settle down. With Sidney? Well, if I was in the same boat this time in 2008, of course. I just had to except that part of my life is over.
That fall I went to visit Justin. It had been a good while since I had. I looked up and saw another little nest close to before. "That's weird, birds shouldn't be having babies this time of the year," I thought out loud. I stood up and saw a baby trying to fly. "Justin, stop doing this to," I muttered. Just then the baby took off. I smiled and felt myself free. "If you're a bird I'm a bird!" I laughed. "I'm sorry, baby, but it's time for me to move on." I had my ring on my finger and knew it was time to leave it behind. I moved the flowers I brought to his grave and drug a good size hole, and buried my ring inside a small box I found in my car. "I will always love you. Thank you letting me free."
This was my time to finally live my life like I never had before.
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